等待

好漫长的等待哦。

等到我的颈项好像又变长了许多！

今天心情很复杂。

一边期盼我的结果，根本没什么心情做工。

另一方面，还是得做工，还要面对这些坏人。

特别讨厌看到那些好吃懒做的人，怪东怪西的人。

真的有点不想做工了， 多希望下班的时间快点到来。

rawrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

THE FINAL ROUND

Just thought of blogging this and giving thanks to God for His plan.

Our God is real and truly always there for us, whether we know it or not.  Sometimes, I know I have not been spending loads of quiet time with God and sometimes, I just forget to listen to God.  But our God never forsakes us.  He is always there.

Since December, it has been quite a tough time for me at work and honestly, I think I was feeling a tad depressed especially when I came to know about how evil the world or people can be.  At such times, God reminds me that I have nothing to fear.  When I started feeling very demoralised at work and just felt like giving up and just leave, God reminds me to be patient.  At first, I didn't want to listen and went all out to search for jobs.  And I became quite sad when there was no calls; I was desperate.  Then again, God reminded me to be patient.  Whenever I pray, the key word was patience and it was confirmed also when my ex-boss also had the same message from God.  I then remembered that I need to trust God and be patient.  I became more selective with my job search and found this one job which is a role I enjoy and the environment seems to be awesome from the employees' reviews.

I didn't think that anyone would call me especially with my notice period so I was patient but somehow feeling hopeless.  But God made a way for me and things couldn't go smoother than it is.  I got a call and the timing of interviews were perfectly timed to my convenience.  When God works, all is perfect.  His timing is perfect and everything is perfect.  

Even today's final round of meeting was perfect as the company even accommodated to me as I was not able to take leave.  Well, I was prepared to take urgent leave if it comes to that point.  But look at how blessed I am!  The final round of meeting went well, I suppose.  I enjoyed the meeting and things seem to be positive.  Let's see where it goes from here.  God is in control and I will be patient to see the outcome.

I just want to take this time to thank God for blessing me so abundantly and I know that it is Him who is taking such good care of me and guiding me.  Praise the Lord for His love for me and for his wonderful plans!  

Will update and blog again soon!

Wedding Diary Day 2 - Wedding Gown Choosing

I didn't expect that my second post on my wedding will be almost a year later.  

Oh wells, we picked and "re-picked" our bridal studio fairly quickly and we confirmed with Rico-A-Mona bridal.  We just went for my gown choosing last weekend with the biggest entourage in the bridal shop.  HEHEHE, what to do?  I have many family members and I would love for them to share their views and awesome taste on my gown choosing.  I was really happy to have all of them there for me; their views meant a lot to me! (though of course, I do feel bad for taking up their time, and I took almost 5 hours! :p)

No pictures for now until the wedding day, I suppose.  But I super love my actual day white gown.  All I can say that, it is love at first sight, I guess.  It was the first gown I tried on when I went down to Rico-A-Mona for the first time and then when I tried it again at this second visit, it just felt Perrrrrrrrfect!  Now all I need to do, is not to grow TOO FAT. hahahaha!

Oh and we have confirmed our solemniser and marriage preparation course!  Des has also briefly discussed the GUO DA LI matters with my parents.  So I guess, we are pretty much on track.

Up next and I simply cannot wait, is our prewed shoot!  Oh, before that, we will be taking care of our tan with our upcoming Phuket trip! hahaha.

✔ Bridal Studio Confirmed
✔ Actual Day Photographer Confirmed
✔ Solemniser Confirmed
✔ Photoshoot Gowns and Actual Gowns Confirmed
✔ Marriage Preparation Course Confirmed
✔ Guo Da Li Confirmed


Almost there, YAY!

Wedding Diary Day 1 - Booking of Wedding Hotel

Well, I have decided to return to blog, esp now that I am going into the planning of our wedding.  Just wanted to have some documenting of it somehow or another and hoping that I will persevere in blogging throughout. Hehehehe.

Since the PROPOSAL on 14 Feb 15 which was pretty surreal to me then and there as I was under quite some amount of work stress, the full amount of joy and happiness only came upon after the proposal.  Well, the proposal was not up to my romantic expectations but I was very touched by his effort and I know that he did his best already.  It was one of the best memories nonetheless! :) One that I will definitely share with our kids in the future.

After the PROPOSAL, we started researching on the hotels and it was quite tedious having to read up on all the wedding packages and details.  The other more tedious thing was to find time to do the site visits which burnt some of our weekend time. 

In this process, He was the one looking more into our finances and prices and rates and trying to negotiate for better packages. And me, being the girl, looks for a good menu, themes and venue feel. Hahahaha!  Well, FOOD is of utmost importance to me okay! ^^

Nonetheless, here's our reviews on the hotels we shortlisted and seen (in no sequence of liking).

1. Novotel

Pros
- Food Menu : Good choice of palatable dishes

Cons
- Coordinator annoyed the shit out of the both of us. I have never seen Le Boyfriend so upset with a coordinator person before. So you can imagine how much the damage was done.  Anyway, the feel that we gotten was that Novotel didn't lack our business.
- Ballroom: Low ceiling and too square and two stupid pillars blocking quite a far bit.
- Perks is so-so and not much negotiation could be done.
- Location: quite a distance from MRT and does not feel like a 4 star hotel when you step in, esp the part when it's like seem to link to Liang Court, probably?

2. Carlton Hotel

Pros
- Food is from the famous Wah Lok Restaurant
- Food menu is flexible for us to switch certain dishes
- The wedding coordinator, Michelle is very professional and cheerful; it really makes a difference! :) I strongly recommend her!
- Carlton has the feel of a high class hotel when you step in.
- Very conveniently located near CityHall!

Cons
- The ballroom that we require for has low ceiling and also pillars that block some view so we did not like it
- Package was non-negotiable (but this should not be a problem if you dont have an issue with money)

3. M Hotel

Pros
- Convenient Location
- Food menu is good
- Package offered is generous
- Personal cocktail area which is also your solemnisation area
- Attached room near the ballròom for resting, makeup and changing for bride and groom
- Big bridal suite with jacuzzi!

Cons
- Low ceiling
- Ballroom still seems abit cramped
- Did not like the plain white seatcovers

Okay, think that's quite about it. Haha. Shall share more when I get back today after my confirming of one of the three listed hotels.  Am quite glad that we managed this without much arguments as we have very clearly defined roles. Hahaha but of course, he had to keep reminding to keep cost low. Hehe.  Am really glad that we managed this within my expected timeframe and within less than 1.5 months. Hahaha! Achievement unlocked.

So yay!

✔ Wedding Hotel Booked!

委屈

委屈。

林嘉欣, 你要坚强。你要加油!

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY

haha. the irony of my first post in Year 2013 being on April's Fool Day.

Well, finally stopped work.  Freed from the mean people.
but am starting to feel a tad bored with not working and not having the income to support my activities.

Taiwan trip was memorable with boyfriend.  I want to go Taiwan again!! :)

Life has been, normal, i guess.  Rather mundane.
And as usual, I get tired of routines.
When you get too routined, you kind of realise how fast time flies and how fast people grow old.

I need to plan for myself soon.  Or I'll just keep going in circles.
Nothing accomplished at the end of the day.  limjiaxin, wake up and jiayou oh! :)

Counting down to Year 2013

Well, it's just two days from welcoming Year 2013.  I reckon that I had better write something first today 'cause I will be too pre-occupied tomorrow to do any blogging before Year 2012 ends.

Year 2012 has been nice and mean to me all at the same time.  Some joy, some sadness.  Some gains, some losses.  Oh well.  Nonetheless, I am glad that I survived Year 2012 and I thank God for all His blessings to get me through all that were put in my way.  Year 2012 has shown me lots about people.  About friendship, relationship, work, etc.  About the reality of life.  But most importantly, Year 2012 has shown me even more about how God is with me through it all and how God works in my life no matter what. 

Year 2012 made me an even stronger person.  Year 2012 made me see the importance of my friends.  Year 2012 made me see how relationships/friendships can endure the test of time.  Year 2012 made me witness how awesome my boss is and also how good my team is.  Year 2012, I guess, made me a better person somehow :)

With Year 2012 coming to an end, I see so many happy news of friends getting engaged, married or pregnant.  Guess Year 2012 is not that bad afterall :) 

Year 2013 is just round the corner.  I'm done with making resolutions which I know that I will never do it.  So come what may :) 

Can't wait to countdown to Year 2013 with friends I love.  Yes, start the Year right and end it right.  Happy New Year in advance :)

18 more days to end of Year 2012

Hello.  It's been so long and now Year 2012 is coming to an end soon.
Year 2012 has been yet another roller coaster ride for me.  The good and the not-so-good.
Heh.  In Year 2012, my faith has been challenged time after time.  Year 2012 has shown me alot about the reality in society and how people can change.  Time after time, I was reminded about the parable of the Sower and the seeds mentioned in the bible.  I want to be the one and continue to hold on being the seed which fell on good ground and pray that I am able to learn and sow seeds for the Lord effectively :)

(Matthew 13:1-23)
On the same day Jesus went out of the house and sat by the sea. 2 And great multitudes were gathered to Him, so that He got into a boat and sat down; and the whole multitude stood on the shore.
3 Then He spoke many things to them in parables, saying: “Behold, a sower went out to sow. 4 And as he sowed, some seed fell by the wayside; and the birds came and devoured them. 5 Some fell on stony places, where they did not have much earth; they immediately sprang up because they had no depth of earth. 6 But when the sun was up they were scorched, and because they had no root they withered away. 7 And some fell among thorns, and the thorns sprang up and choked them. 8 But others fell on good ground and yielded a crop, some a hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty. 9 He who has ears to hear, let him hear.”

10 And the disciples came and said to Him, “Why do you speak to them in parables?” 11 He answered and said to them, “Because it has been given to you to know the mysteries of the kingdom of heaven, but to them it has not been given. 12 For whoever has, to him more will be given, and he will have abundance; but whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken away from him. 13 Therefore I speak to them in parables, because seeing they do not see, and hearing they do not hear, nor do they understand. 14 And in them the prophecy of Isaiah is fulfilled, which says:

‘Hearing you will hear and shall not understand, and seeing you will see and not perceive; 15 for the hearts of this people have grown dull. Their ears are hard of hearing, and their eyes they have closed, lest theyn should see with their eyes and hear with their ears, lest they should understand with their hearts and turn, so that I should heal them.’

16 But blessed are your eyes for they see, and your ears for they hear; 17 or assuredly, I say to you that many prophets and righteous men desired to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it.
18 Therefore, hear the parable of the sower: 19 When anyone hears the word of the kingdom, and does not understand it, then the wicked one comes and snatches away what was sown in his heart. This is he who received seed by the wayside. 20 But he who received the seed on stony places, this is he who hears the word and immediately receives it with joy; 21 yet he has no root in himself, but endures only for a while. For when tribulation or persecution arises because of the word, immediately he stumbles. 22 Now he who received seed among the thorns is he who hears the word, and the cares of this world and the deceitfulness of riches choke the word, and he becomes unfruitful, 23 But he who received seed on the good ground is he who hears the word and understands it, who indeed bears fruit and produces: some a hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty.”
But thank God for His love and blessings that got me through it all. Year 2012 made me realise how great my God is and how awesome it is to be a child of God and how important it is to stay close to God. Thank God for my awesome boss who has been a great mentor and role model, be it at work or in my spiritual walk.  Thank God for my awesome boyfriend who stood by me and supported in every step of my life. 

Am already 24 this year.  Feels old.  So not wishing to grow any older.  Haha.  Ageing kind of scares me.  Man, this makes me feel like getting married soon, instead of getting married later when I am old, fat and full of wrinkles.  But wells, doubt that it will be happening anytime soon ba.  Haha..

As Year 2012 ends, Year 2013 opens up a whole new chapter of my life again.  I do not know what's going to happen when our decision is executed but I know that my God will be with me through it all and I pray that His peace will cover and fill all of us at all times. 

Now, I am just counting down to Christmas to spend with love and our end of 2012 party :)

Gotta go off and sleep soon~  Nights.. :)

Wake me up when September ends.

Finally that I get to use that song title.  Haha. 
September is going to be a madness month for us.  I would need lots of prayers and guidance from the Holy Spirit to get through this.

My favourite temp girl is leaving me.  I am kind of dreading and trying hard not to think about it so that it will not happen.  I am kind of praying that she will be called back frequently enough.  September is going to be even more madness without her being around.  Sad.

Maybe have to start looking for a job elsewhere soon.  Maybe just maybe, if things do not get better.

Lord, let Your Will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. 

Thank You, Lord Jesus :)

无言以对。

 累了。不知道要怎么做。
 不管做什么，都被人批评。
 就算总提醒自己要尽力，大家好像只看得见你的缺点。
 为什么就不能看见我的努力，我做对的事呢？
 我好累哦。

 好想放弃。

 这一切都让我觉得我很失败，我不够好，我没能力。

 真的很痛苦。但谁能体会？谁能真的了解呢？

28 July 2012

It's been really a long while since I last updated anything here.

Life's been a real roller-coaster ride for me. 
The stress at work.  The people I deal with.  The reality of working life.
In fact, I can't really say that life has been treating me all that kind with all those things that I go through.

But thank God for great friends and for a super understanding and sweet boyfriend :)

So for the updates:

1. Attended the 1st wedding of my age-group friends and my first time being a bridemaid.

2. Finally completed the midyear payout month without much of a hiccup, though there was some sort of one. hehs.

3. Learnt to take it much easier at work.  still learning though.

Just as I was thinking about what to update, I realised that there isn't much going on in my life.  Ah.. Such boring life I lead.  Come to think of it, I am pretty much no life.  Not much of achievements nowadays.  Practically working my ass off from Mondays to Fridays and with all the OTs.  Saturdays half the day is gone for my kids and the rest of it for boyfriend.  Sundays are left for church services.  Not much of a lifestyle.  Sigh.

There are so much so things that I wanna do.  Continue my piano lessons.  Get a degree in Social Work.  Get my Masters maybe?  Or maybe, all I want to do is just to be able to make a difference in what I do.  Somehow, at the moment, I do not feel much of that.  De-motivating much.


Need to get a life.  Somehow.

祝我生日快乐。

祝我生日快乐。
只想简简单单地，开开心心地和爱我的人度过。
这就足够了。

:)

再见了。

不被在乎，何必去在意呢？
累了。不想管了。
我的世界不需要为了谁而停止了旋转。
再见了。

Been quite overwhelmed with work.
Been having far too little time for bf, myself, family, and friends.

Can't wait for Friday.
Gonna make sure that I spend quality time with myself and my dear boyfriend :)

心情

刚把些许的工作做完，感觉压力有点减轻。
希望今晚能睡得安稳，真不想又半夜被莫名的压力惊醒了。
我想，我还是得多多为我的这方面来祷告。

今天在教会看见了一个久违的教友。她还抱着个小宝宝。
简听到了她的故事。挺让我讶异，并使我开始思考。
我们的人生虽短暂，但我们还是得好好地三思而行啊。
一旦跨出那错误的那一步，有时我们还得花剩下的一辈子来纠正。

I feel so tired. Can't wait for the weekends to meet my boyfriend and go dating with him. Can't wait for the end of the month when I can go on holiday with my dear boyfriend and do nothing but rest and rest and rest :) I guess, I really need a break. I miss studying so. I miss doing exams. A good part of me feels like going back to school and maybe, I should.

Lord, please give me strength and clarity of mind to get past these two weeks. Lord, help me to prioritise and guide me in my work that I may be able to clear all outstanding tasks with ease and take on new tasks without much difficulty. Lord, teach me to be patient at all times and remind of Your love which can drive out all fear. Thank You, Lord Jesus. Amen.

happy 8th :)

It's been awhile since I have last touched my blog.

It's our 8th month-sery today just as the clock struck past midnight.
Whoa. It's already 8 months? :)
It honestly didn't feel like it has been that long.

現在的我是幸福的；因為有了你。

I love you, baby.
happy 8th month, my love :)

random thoughts

Being romantic is not an innate thing.
It means to have the heart to want to put effort to display love in your actions/gestures.

Or perhaps, I have too high an expectation that everyone should think like me.

UPDATES!

Just felt like posting some updates :)

1. Had a good trip to BKK with BF and my awesome uni people :)
Full of non-stop shopping and walking which left me rather fatigue for the rest of the week.
Loved and enjoyed the time away from work, though and simply spending all my time with my dear boyfriend who really took great care of me throughout the trip :)

2. Work is becoming kind of depressing. I am trying to find the meaning of my work right now.
Want to work for a good meaning. Want to work so that I can make God proud :)

3. Night safari with boyfriend for the 1st time :)
Had tuition prior to that and my fatigue hit me real bad that I had to head to boyfriend's place to nap before we could set off to the Night Safari.
The whole experience there with boyfriend was awesome.
Felt like an awesome date with him, rather than a normal trip to the Night Safari. ^^
Was feeling kind of bad 'cause of my fatigue that I wasn't that much of a good company for boyfriend.
Hopefully, Boyfriend enjoyed it as much as I did :)

That's all for the updates for the week :)

Valentine's Day is round the corner.
Queues outside the florists have started to grow ridiculously long.
Some say V-day is over-commerialised.
Some feels that V-day is a day of the display of love gestures for your loved one/significant other.

My thoughts? I haven't been able to spend vdays properly to arrive at any firm conclusion like the abovementioned, I guess.
but still, being a hopeless romantic, I do feel and agree with the song lyrics of Fish Leong's song:
"其实爱对了人, 情人节每天都过"
so well...(totally forgotten what I want to say already)
Well, I feel that everyone should still put in effort into the r/s at all time even if it's not vdays.
Simple gestures of love can be shown/given at any time. It's just how much you are willing to put in for the relationship, I guess.

hahaha. actually, I particularly enjoy watching the hopelessly clueless guys panicking in shops/florists about what to get for their significant other. Maybe I should get off work on time to go amuse myself tomorrow.
hahaha. (good idea, actually.) :D

Happy Valentine's Day to all in advance!
Stay happy in love and cherish each other with all your love and might :)

29 January 2012

It's been awhile since I've last written anything in this space of mine.
Really been overwhelmed with work and with the CNY celebration,
I barely have time to even rest more, much less to find time to blog.

Maybe just some random thoughts and updates as I wait for my photos to upload in my facebook:

1. CNY celebration was not too bad. Pretty enjoyable, less the unnecessary nagging.
But the bus breakdowns were horrible and made me ultra grumpy.
And I was super glad to be back in singapore!

2. Work has been hectic as usual. More stressful of late, I must say, with all the turnover.
Hates working with a sense of distrust. Hates having to deal with unethicality and lack of integrity, especially when we are working in a Christian organisation. And especially when we call ourselves Christians or even children of God. What kind of testimony are such people living out for the people of the world to see? I just dislike the fact that such people ended up being the ones bringing distrust, trauma to others. What has happened to your Christian values?

Goodness. Man, I shouldn't be judging. But God will be the judge. Sometimes, I do question just as certain people would ask me, why does the God whom we always proclaim to love us, would put us through such times. Well, I have found the answer quite some time ago. The cliche way of saying would be there are always reasons for everything. As Christians, it's already said in the bible that we would have to go through the tests of trials and tribulations. Thus, I have long learnt to not question "WHY ME?" or "Why is God doing this to me?". It's easier to ask and try to figure out "What is God trying to teach me or tell me?" And truly, when we seek the Lord to simply ask, He will surely answer as He has promised.

I pray that the Lord will reveal and expose the unrighteousness, lies and deceptions of things which do not glorify His name. And that, He will strengthen the sense of discernment of the top management to make the right decisions.

3. CNY Lunch steamboat with Happy gang was awesome. Yusheng is unexpectedly good. Really ate too much and went into food coma. Played cards. Win some and Lost some. Mahjong session was awesome and full of fun and endless laughters.

That's all for today ba. Can't wait for end of Thursday.

hello 2012.

hello 2012.

thank God for being in control all the time.
thank God for His timing and for His answering of prayers.

and even more so, thank God for my boyfriend :)
so many a time, I simply woke up every morning feeling so blessed to have him in my life.
It's just so indescribable, beyond words.
At times, I find myself just smiling at the thought of him and the little things he does.
Mornings feel weird w/o morning messages from him.
Weeks feel lacking when I don't get to meet him.
Everyday I find myself looking forward to each and every date I get with boyfriend.
Everyday I look forward to the time I get to talk to him on the phone, just simply to hear his voice.
Everytime I want to plan for my leaves or a holiday, he's the first one I think of to spend time with / go with.

and everyday, he's just growing to be a bigger and more important part of my life.

I love you, dear Desmond.
happy 5 months, love :)